Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Over and out 2012!



Hii all!




 

 
I wanna wish you a (late) merry & tastefull Christmas with lots of friends, family and ofcourse food!











Above all I wanna wish you all the Love! In all ways possible. 














Let's rock this Christmas!!! ;D 









And onnn to the next year! 2013... 


Hope to see ya (on my blog) next year!!

<3
Fox.

ps. Thnxx for visiting my blog this year. 

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Take a shower...

They say that your best ideas come to you in the shower...

Well this might be strange for you, what I'm gonna ask.
But it came to me under the shower!

Don't you feel small sometimes in a shower?

When I moved in 2008 I thought I would get the best, brand new, shower ever. 
Well, it suckt...
It had no power what-so-everrr. I feld sad and angry.

Then a couple years later I moved out of house and got my "own" 
(shared with one friend) shower.
It was ok, a cubicle, iron thing. Really square and small, but still ok.

After half a year we got our own shower. Mine was futuristic. 
Chrome with two enourmouss mirrors. just looking at you. 
The thing looked like a time machine!

But the thing is, I felt small sometimes. But other times I felt bigger...

Now, I moved again!
This shower makes me feel small all the time! Is the ceiling higher? 
Is there more space?
I don't know...


So, do you feel small in the shower?!



Monday, December 10, 2012

On The Road

Here are four Short Stories from my little book (told you 'bout in my last blog)!
I wrote them on the road.
The things you see and hear. The things you have an association or inspiration with.


Waiting

People rushing by in the train station,
once in a while someone looks at you.
Someone notices you.

All people waiting. What are they waiting for?
Their love, their train or their life?!

All those different people.
A man whistling next to me, a bike passing by making a rattling noise,
the footsteps of thousands people who passed this spot.

In the mids of all this, me.
A redheaded girl. Just turned 20. Waiting!
On her love and then to catch a train.
Just like everyone.


 Voices in my head
You can hear so many voices
but you can't catch one word.
Trying as hard a I can.
Only a simple Hello is what you catch 

The world is inspiration.
Watching, listening, feeling,
smelling and tasting it all.

Inspiration is all around.
It gives me monkeymind.
Screaming monkeys who wants to get out.

I let them out by writing. 
Monkeys go faster than I can write,
sadly.

So they stay voices in my head.




Following Lines

Your eyes keep following the lines.

But my heart doesn't like following.
It has it's own line.
A heart line, a heart beat. Like yours.

Mine likes to follow it's own path.
Care what others do. It's about what you do and what you wanna do.

Will you be happy if you follow the lines the world made "normal" in life?

It's about seeing more than lines. Create them.




Silence

Break the Silence.
It was a sign on the walls
of a bungalow park I was once.

Silence is hard.
Only when you're sleeping there is silence
(except the snorring types).
At least your mouth doesnt make sounds
and you won't hear most of the world.

You brain, however, still echoes on.
Every night you have dreams.
It's a pitty you don't remember them all.

A phone rings in the silence part of the train.
We "sssssttt!!!!" him like little kids. Still funny.

And then you wake up with a scream.

Friday, December 7, 2012

Short Story

I bought this little book for on the road. So that wherever I am, I can write my thoughts and things I hear or notice. It's my new addiction. 

From now on you can expect short stories from me. Little brain farts from around 20 lines.

 



Below is my first little writing I came up with in the dark one evening last week.

Darkness had a nice ambience for writing. Just like the fog last month.

It's about all that is around you. Interpretations of things you see and hear sometimes.

I experienced this little walk with all my senses.



Surroundings 

Fences around me, surrounding. 
Fog hanging on the water.
Narrow foothpaths underneath.
People passing, talking in foreign languages.
Stairs leading up nowhere and a fire wagen scaring the shit out of me.

But there is you next to me and the moon guiding us home. A bright light.
Together we'll make it home. With you I'm always home.
Whereever life takes me. 

The road is unknown but I follow it without doubt.
Follow my own life.

Friday, November 30, 2012

Never Alone!

Are you lonely sometimes? Or should I ask, alone? How many times are you really alone…

Im sitting here in my new room, alone, but not lonely. Lonely is a state of mind while alone is a more a fact. You can be lonely but not alone. And you can be alone but not lonely. I guess it’s all what you make from it!

Picture I took last week
Ok, sitting here. Alone! In a lonely room. The room is empty, so I call it lonely now. Can a room be lonely? Isnt empty the same as lonely? You can feel empty and you can feel lonely. It’s not exactly the same state of mind, ha?

The room is empty(lonely) and quiet, once in a while a train passes. I have to get used to that. The sound of trains rushing by. People rushing to go to work or returning home. I see them, all rushed up.

Most of the people in the train are alone. But certainly not lonely, that’s what they wanna think. See them looking at their mobile phone. Reading the posts of their so called “friends”.

Do you like or comment on everything they do (Post)? If someone tells you something, you react right? But why do you skip most of your friends and only comment on a couple of things? Nice friend are you!

So to you, those people in the train, pretending... Look at the person next to you for a change. You can have the best conversations with people you don’t know.

The people rushing by scared me today. I was walking through Central Station but all people moving at different speeds to different locations made my head go wild.

Have you ever stopped in the middle of the station and just sat there and looked? It’s a funny sight and quite overwhelming sometimes..


I would like to share this picture with you while I'm talking about feeling rushed or lonely.

I came across the exhibition of Alexandra Cool in Photo Museum Antwerp last summer. 

Really enjoyed watching all her pictures. Couldn't keep staring. And things don't get to me like that, so often.

This picture is from the serie 'Landscapes'. It's a shame it's a bit small. But there's a calming but also rushing feeling to it.

It's like water, it looks calm on the surface but underneath...


Hé reader! Who are you? Where are you from? You're not alone out there. I like to hear from you once in a while :]

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Missing = you



 I miss you from the moment you leave untill the moment you're back.

 I have to miss you for a couple of months, because you're on adventure.

 I have to miss you for as long as I live cause you're not here anymore.

 I miss you now, because we don't live in the same house anymore.

It's really sad I have to miss you 'cause we are busy and stupid to not make time.

Miss you when I'm home but forget my own home when back where I came from.

You missed almost all my life and missing the knowledge of who I am now.

 I sometimes still miss you and wonder if you miss me too once in a while!?

I miss the crazy times we used to have.




Who do you miss? And what is it that you miss of this person?

Do you miss the love? The attention? The talks? The care? The good old times? The touch? Or just to be with this person?

It might be a good thing to miss people. Also sad, but it tells you that you care about them. Let the people you miss know this.

Let them know you care!

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Where nobody knows...

That would be the beste place in the world sometimes, don't you think? Sometimes you don't want people to "know" you.

You know what I find annoying? When it's early and I go somewhere but during your trip you stumble on someone who "knows" you.



Ofcourse you try having a conversation for the little time you're with this person but still it won't come loose.

It spoils my waking up ritual. I like being alone in the morning trips. Listen to my music and reading stupid news papers you can get for free and only just really read your horoscope.

Is it bad that I don't want to be interrupted in my morning cyclus (and also on my way home later on in the day) or is it morning moodiness?

I'm currious about what you can or can't handle in the morning! TELL ME.
I know somebody who says "I hate mornings" every time she gets up.


Fun thing nobody really knows what you know. You can guess what others are thinking but you'll never know exactly. Even when you ask people don't tell every thought.

People are interesting. Not knowing what they think but still trying. Reading their body language or watching their particularly habbits. Analysing every word.

Do your thoughts reflect the others? How well do you know the other person. Or how well do others know you? Who knows you the best?

Wouldn't it be great to go to a place where nobody knows you sometimes? Where you can do whatever you want, just how you want it? No one who annoys you.

Even if it's only for one week...


Good song


Tomorrow I'll be there again my friend
I'll wake up and start all over again
When everybody else is gone

Nobody knows...
Nobody knows the rhythm of my heart.
I think nobody knows, nobody knows but me

Foggy Walls

Riding through the foggy streets tonight. It makes me feel invisable in a weird kind of way. On the last moment you see things doom up around you.

The heavier the fog the more invisible I feel. Like the fog wants me to be alone for a while. But what if I really wanna dissapear? On a foggy night...

You remember High School? When you're sick at home and you get a text "where are you?!". That makes you feel visable. Even when you're not there they see you.

I sometimes wonder what happens when I would be gone. Somewhere nobody knows. What would happen? Will people miss me? Or gonna try finding me?

What if I don't wanna be found? I want to dissapear. Ok, the police can track me down but will somebody go to the police? Will I be missed? Will I be found?

Who will be the first one to notice that I'm gone? If you're not there one time, without notification, it won't be noticed. Only after a couple times they will start to wonder.

The fog has something magic. A way of telling you something. But what is its message? It brings me back to myself. Like thick walls around you.

Yeah, that's it! It makes me feel locked up. Makes me think of breaking loose but that also scares me 'cause I can't leave behind what I have.

Because I love the people and things I have in my life so much...

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Chistmas2012

Last year I made a big project of my christmas cards... Well, every year I enjoy making a design for my own christmas cards but last year I gave it an extra touch. I gave you my friends a card with honesty!

Read the blog from last year again!
I told you how much I appreciated you. What I liked about you. Remember? Do you still have that card?

Well this year I want to look back... Instead of looking forwards.

I'll call this project: Do you remember?! Just Like Old Times!
A card full of appreciation and memories.

So I'll come back on an adventure, day, trip, holiday, happening or stupidcrazylovelyawesomely something we did/saw/had/been to or discovered together.

I wanna look back on all the good times WE had! And ofcourse hoping for more than a thousand others yet to come.

So when you open your card and read it. I hope you will enjoy it... Maybe you should've picked another happening but this one comes to my mind when I think of you. Please feel free to share another happening as return.

All love to all my friends and friends I haven't met yet!

I also wanna wish EVERYBODY a very delightfull and lovely christmas and sparkly new year!!!

Loveeee <3
Fox.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

From 24 hours to one year!!

My last blog was about 24 hours (34)...

Today it's november 3th. Exactly one year ago I started this blog! Time to evaluate...

1. Let's get it started in here!

2. My "First" blog was the announcement of me putting my bullshit on the web ;]

5. Stick to your deal. I still listen to her music and hope to see a show again soon.

10. Wereldband! Best band everrr. You'll never believe it but after I finish this blog I'm going to their new show!

11. Santa Claus & Sinterklaas, It's all coming again!

13. My Christmas, reminds me that I have to get started with my new Christmas Card project! I ordered them last week :]

15. Best Roomie, sadly I'm gonna leave you in two weeks. We had the best of times but due to finance I have to move. Will never forget you and we'll keep having our "roomie" nights! <3

20. Wish I knew that, every day is a special day and every time I find out about it afterwards... What's your favourite weird day? Mine is Kiss a Ginger Day!

22. Roller Derby! Hell yeah. Physious Fox, that would be me. I played my first bouts, won the MVP (Most Valuable Player) award once and still going! Gonna celebrate my one year Derby on February first. (25)

26. My best pie! I'm gonna have a guest pie'er on soon! More delicious baking just like the Appel Bomb (29)

27. Words on my paper. I'm really proud of this blog. It's why I write... Maybe my best blog everrrr.

30. The only contance thing in life is change!

32. Leave me alone. All my plans to escape came together. Not quite as expected but still I had a week alone!

33. I'm just gonna do what I want!

These are my favourite blogs form last year! I had 1.462 views, 1000 from The Netherlands and the rest coming from 10 other countries all over the world. Awesome!

So here we are, blog nummero 35 in one year time... Damn.

I like to keep writing my blogs! If you have a subject you want me to write about, tell me!!! I like a challenge ;]

It has been a great year. I learnt a lot and wrote a lot. I hope people liked my blog last year and gonna keep following me the coming years!

Byebyee!
Fox.

Friday, September 28, 2012

Twenty-Four Hours With...

Imagine two people locked away from the outside world for 24 hours!
No constant communication and sounds. No Facebook, no phones, no television shouting, no computer or internet.

Just two people locked away from the outside world.

The only occasion that you can leave this room is for a toilet break.
So make sure you have everything you need in that room, like food and drinks ;]

I was one of the people locked away from the outside world.
This great experience, or challenge (however you wanna call it), is one I survived!

How often do you really take time for another person? And do you really have all attention when you're with someone. Noise every where, your phone beeping every second. (Not saying that's not me)

We should never lose the real contacts...

I enjoyed this 24 hours to the fullest. Very relaxing too! Nobody bugging you.
All goes out to you and the person you're with.

You should really try this!
I did it with a new friend so we got the chance to get to know eachother.
But still, with a very good friend or (bigger challenge) as a relation test...

Imagine two people locked away from the outside world on just 15m2.
No clock ticking and curtains taped closed. You totally lose track of time.
It's bizarre to realise how obsessed the world is with time.
You keep asking yourself "what time would it be...".

Oh, one thing... Don't forget to set the alarm! Or have somebody who warns you.
You'll never know where the finish is otherwise.
We where shocked when the alarm went. Is it over already?!
But we still haven't done loads of things we planned!!

Imagine two people locked away from the outside world where every silence exists.
Normally you can watch a movie, put on the telly or listen to a CD.
Now the room is filled with silence. When you don't talk it's quiet.
Don't be scared of the silence, it's the ultimate relaxing sound there is.


Imagine two people locked away from the outside world, it could be you too!!



Saturday, September 15, 2012

Do What You Want

Knowing what you want...

There are lots of things people want. Well, what do I really want? Hmm.
Ask yourself that. What's worth everything?

Do you want something or change things? A degree, to be happy or a new phone (again...)? There is so much in life...

When I really want something I will go for it. I don't wanna be scared getting what I want. But sometimes it takes a lot of courage to get it.

But still... What do I really want?
Ofcourse I wanna be happy. I wanna be healthy, I wanna have fun and go on and on...

Life is a quest, searching for what you really want and then finding it, or fighting for it. What else are we here for?! ;]

Let things come to you and make the best of it! When you still miss things in your life, go after them!

Fight for what you love, but don't forget to love what you have.

First step to getting what you want is knowing what you want and define what it actually is. Harder than it seems.

People always seem to want things they don't have. They go for the opposite of what they have.
Accept and love what you have first and then go after the things you can't do without.

Most of the times I know what I want but letting go of what I have is harder.

Saying farewell isn't fun. I lost my two jobs in one week.
I could never say farewell to the one and the other was a pitty it stopped.

I let the other party make the decision of stopping for me. Now I had the quest of finding a job I want. And I found it! Was so worth the fight...

Look at all things in life as an opportunity.
A farewell can be a goodbye!


What do you want/read? 


Thursday, August 23, 2012

Leave me alone, I'm lonely tonight.

Walking down the street , looking next to you and having nobody walk with you.

It's the reality that sometimes hits me here in Edinburgh on my lonely trip.

I feel really independent and free. It feels good to go your own way, all the time.

Never thought I would be the one saying that. I'm used to being together, always.

I'm really happy I went on this adventure. And made some great friends already.

Luckily I have found awesome people here and I can do Roller Derby with Arrg too.

The worst thing about friends here is the reality to losing them when you return.

Sometimes it feels like I'm living in another universe, I forget what I have at home.

It has been two amazing weeks. Glad I passed my own challenge and I learnt alot. 

Cheers!


Sunday, August 5, 2012

Escape?!

Yet another blog with the title Escape... You still reading?

Good.

My plans to escape came out a little bit different than planned. It's not much of an escape anymore.
But it is a great holiday and I gave myself a big challenge with it.

I will be leaving soon, to Scotland! My favourite place and festival there. I blabbered about backpacking and finishing it in Edinburgh. Well, I'm only going to Edinburgh!

Yes question...? "What's the challenge!?"
Let me tell you. I'm used to doing everything together. I enjoy it more. So the challenge for me here is in being alone. For one whole week.
The first week in Edinburgh I will be there on my own. I never went on holiday totally solo!

Help me? Please Blow me one last kiss! 

I'm also going to skate in Edinburgh! I'll visit the Auld Reekie Roller Girls. Cause I'm addicted to Roller Derby, ofcourse, and can't do two weeks without my quads.

And as I'm still in the country, I'll be visiting the National Museum of Roller Derby and donate them some merchandise from our own Dom City Dolls!

Wait, go back. Two weeks?!
Yes! The second week I won't be alone. Yay for me, haha. A good friend will join me in the craziness of the amazing Edinburgh Fringe Festival and it's just going to be freakin' awesome!

I hope everyone is enjoying their holiday too...!? Tell me some stories here.
We'll keep in contact! <3

Here's my summer pic for July, the lovely Ollie made out of bottles.
(More great pics for August guaranteed after Edinburgh)



Ps. I wanna thank a crazy and lovely friend who is kind enough to drop me at the airport ;] THNX!

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Choices, Chances & Changes

"chang·ing - to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what it is or from what it would be if left alone alone"

It's a common thing happening in my surroundings at the moment.
Changes.

Something happening to you so you HAVE to change.
or
You WANT to change things in your life.

People are busy changing. 
Plans to move to other countries, people quitting their job, moving, changing theirselfs, their relations, others, things, life, thoughts, friends or just everything.

Is change a good thing? Sometimes if you have to change, you're better of afterwards. That's a good outcome. But remember if you want/have to change there is always the chance that it turns out worse. 
You'll never know, untill...

That's the beauty of life. You'll never know where you are gonna be tomorrow and one day or minute can change everything. 

Today is the best day in life. Don't live for tomorrow or stay behind in the past. Yes there are great things in the future, but to come there you have to live today.

Tomorrow there is another today.

Maybe you think that nothing's changed, but day by day but when you look back you see how much has changed. 

I like to think that I'm free and possible to change everything when I want to. Sometimes things change that you don't want to change. The question is, do you have to change because of it?! Make the best of the changes in your life. 
Find the chances in change. 

I used to be a great planner and hated change of plans but life is much more surprising if you don't look forwards all the time.

Think about it, do you want to change or have to change? Don't rush it. 
Make sure to find YOUR choice. 

Be your own change!



Thursday, June 28, 2012

Hé Apple!

Yes! I like baking. Soooo I tried making Applebombs last week!
I would say "Appelbol" but that's so dutch...

I want to share this with you ;] 'Cause it's jummie.

Here we gooo!

Needs:
Apples
Puff pastry (square ones)
Sugar (I prefer light brown sugar)
Vanille sugar
Butter

Step 0:
Get your apple!


Step 1:
Get your pastry out of the freezer NOW! 2 square pieces per bomb will do.

Step 2:
If you have a corer you have an easy task. Just core that thing!
I do not have it! So, cut the apple in two pieces and try to peel out the core yourself.


Step 3:
Grap some butter and fill one half of the apple where you just peeled out the core.
Fill the other half with sugar and place te two pieces of apple together.

Step 4:
Take your whole apple and lay it on a piece of pastry. Fold it around the apple. Then turn it over en put anothere piece of pastry over te other half. Make sure they cover the entire apple and stick the edges together.


Step 5:
I like this one...
Get loads of sugar. Roll your applebomb through the sugar or just smash it on there. It helps if you put your hands under the water and just make the pastry a little bit wet.
Make sure the entire thing is covered in sugar!


Step 6:
Scatter your bag with vanille sugar over it!

Step 7:
Put your bomb in the oven for 20 minutes or so. Just when you think it's edible.
(Yeah I have a weird oven!)


Extra (I know you like extra's) :
If you want it to be the best you've ever had, get some (hot) vanille sauce and pour it over greatly.
Vanille ice cream is also very nice with this hot delight.
But some whipped cream is delicious too! Whatever you like.

Omnomnommm.


I hope you enjoy this! I do...
<3



Sunday, June 24, 2012

Creativi-Tea

After a long blog-break. I'm totally recovering. I got the challenge to write about tea. 
Tea is inspiration so that will do. 

If some of you have a nice idea or challenge for me, let me know! I might make a blog about your subject...

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A cup of tea consists of a lot of different elements. You never know what the teabag will draw you this time. It's like a draw in the lottery.

Is it a good talk or a relaxing moment. A daydream or just a cup full of happiness. Take a cup of courage or pour yourself some luck. 

It makes everything better. Life is like a cup of tea, it's all in how you make it.

A rainy sunday afternoon or a cup for every evening of the week. It doesn't matter. 
Tea will always do.

My favourite tea has tags with little messages. 

Tea for two.
It would be sad if you'd get that one when you're lonely and sad. 

Funny thing is that the tags are always in place! 


I'll always drink my tea with sugar. It makes me think about tea and personalities... 
Does the way you drink your tea or your flavour reflects your personality?! 
I would be sweet and fruity haha.


Tea is liquid wisdom. 
Think about the good times and conversations you had with a cup of tea. 

The only thing that makes tea even better is home baked cookies or muffins...

Share your best tea-moment with me and have a Beau-Tea-Full day!


Saturday, June 23, 2012

The words on my paper.

Staring at a blank paper for a while and then just follow your own brain waves.
Picking up a pen and writing gives me the feeling I’m not thinking at that moment.

A moment later, look at the paper. Look at all the pages filled with words. The feeling of not thinking but still putting on paper what you think. Do you understand it?

I like writing about life and what I do and think about. Writing makes me understand my real feelings and thoughts I can’t come up with while sitting and thinking.

I write to find out what I’m thinking, to find out who I am. I can fill thousands of pages with my thoughts and things in the world but I can’t tell thousands of stories about it.

I write because I want to remember and words hold more truth than memories sometimes. The truth is always hard to tell and hear. I find my truth in writing.

To read the things I wrote in the past makes me smile. It makes me remember how I felt at that time. Go back into your own history. I still relate to words on old paper.

Words are just words, they get in my way. I can never say what I wanna say, who will understand it anyway? It’s such a waste. Papered Words explain what I can't say.

I think everybody is scared to say the things worth saying. I’m that afraid of saying it that I write it down. That way I’ll only have to find the courage to hand it over.

Write me the words that are left unsaid!


Friday, April 27, 2012

Best pie in the world tutorial

WARNING: After reading this blog and following the instructions, you may gain weight!

It's the recipe to my favourite pie! It's a bit dutch i'm afraid but it's a Cherry Monchou pie!

Ingredients:
- One box Bastogne biscuits
- Butter (150gr)
- Monchou (2 packs)
- Whipped cream
- Brown (basterd) sugar

See below:
















Okay! Let's start "baking". That's the best thing about this pie. You do not need an oven. :D

First: Break the Bastogne's in pieces. There are a lot of fun ways to do so. Smash the pack to hard surfaces, toss the thing around, go sit on it or just break it with your hands. Be creative!

This is the texture you want to have afterwards.







Underwhile melt the butter in a pan on low fire.
















When it's all melted, put the Bastogne in with the butter and stir it to make the biscuits browner.
















Then put the mixture in the backing tin. That's the foundation of your pie!

  


Now go and whip your cream! I like to do it by hand. Good for your muscles ;] 
It might take a while... Put in some brown sugar here!



Put the Monchou with also some brown sugar in another bowl and mix this with an electic mixer!
Make it smooth. 















 
Now put the two together in the big bowl and mix it together.

















That's the second layer of this jummie pie. Put this on gently! Hide the Bastgones from te world ;]















 
Now there is only one layer left to put on it! It's the easiest one too. Open the can with Cherry thingy and just lay the cherry stuff on top of the pie with a spoon. Also carefully! It looks the best when you cover it all the way :}
















Tataaadaaaam!!
Hmmm I wanna eat it! You too?

The worst part now... Put it in your fridge! You CAN eat it right now but it will fall apart when you do it right after making. The best is to have it in the fridge for a whole night but a couple of hours will do.







Byebyee pie!









That was the lesson of today! I hope you are inspired and gonna make this pie!

It's delicious.

Enjoy!
Fox.