Friday, November 30, 2012

Never Alone!

Are you lonely sometimes? Or should I ask, alone? How many times are you really alone…

Im sitting here in my new room, alone, but not lonely. Lonely is a state of mind while alone is a more a fact. You can be lonely but not alone. And you can be alone but not lonely. I guess it’s all what you make from it!

Picture I took last week
Ok, sitting here. Alone! In a lonely room. The room is empty, so I call it lonely now. Can a room be lonely? Isnt empty the same as lonely? You can feel empty and you can feel lonely. It’s not exactly the same state of mind, ha?

The room is empty(lonely) and quiet, once in a while a train passes. I have to get used to that. The sound of trains rushing by. People rushing to go to work or returning home. I see them, all rushed up.

Most of the people in the train are alone. But certainly not lonely, that’s what they wanna think. See them looking at their mobile phone. Reading the posts of their so called “friends”.

Do you like or comment on everything they do (Post)? If someone tells you something, you react right? But why do you skip most of your friends and only comment on a couple of things? Nice friend are you!

So to you, those people in the train, pretending... Look at the person next to you for a change. You can have the best conversations with people you don’t know.

The people rushing by scared me today. I was walking through Central Station but all people moving at different speeds to different locations made my head go wild.

Have you ever stopped in the middle of the station and just sat there and looked? It’s a funny sight and quite overwhelming sometimes..


I would like to share this picture with you while I'm talking about feeling rushed or lonely.

I came across the exhibition of Alexandra Cool in Photo Museum Antwerp last summer. 

Really enjoyed watching all her pictures. Couldn't keep staring. And things don't get to me like that, so often.

This picture is from the serie 'Landscapes'. It's a shame it's a bit small. But there's a calming but also rushing feeling to it.

It's like water, it looks calm on the surface but underneath...


Hé reader! Who are you? Where are you from? You're not alone out there. I like to hear from you once in a while :]

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Missing = you



 I miss you from the moment you leave untill the moment you're back.

 I have to miss you for a couple of months, because you're on adventure.

 I have to miss you for as long as I live cause you're not here anymore.

 I miss you now, because we don't live in the same house anymore.

It's really sad I have to miss you 'cause we are busy and stupid to not make time.

Miss you when I'm home but forget my own home when back where I came from.

You missed almost all my life and missing the knowledge of who I am now.

 I sometimes still miss you and wonder if you miss me too once in a while!?

I miss the crazy times we used to have.




Who do you miss? And what is it that you miss of this person?

Do you miss the love? The attention? The talks? The care? The good old times? The touch? Or just to be with this person?

It might be a good thing to miss people. Also sad, but it tells you that you care about them. Let the people you miss know this.

Let them know you care!

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Where nobody knows...

That would be the beste place in the world sometimes, don't you think? Sometimes you don't want people to "know" you.

You know what I find annoying? When it's early and I go somewhere but during your trip you stumble on someone who "knows" you.



Ofcourse you try having a conversation for the little time you're with this person but still it won't come loose.

It spoils my waking up ritual. I like being alone in the morning trips. Listen to my music and reading stupid news papers you can get for free and only just really read your horoscope.

Is it bad that I don't want to be interrupted in my morning cyclus (and also on my way home later on in the day) or is it morning moodiness?

I'm currious about what you can or can't handle in the morning! TELL ME.
I know somebody who says "I hate mornings" every time she gets up.


Fun thing nobody really knows what you know. You can guess what others are thinking but you'll never know exactly. Even when you ask people don't tell every thought.

People are interesting. Not knowing what they think but still trying. Reading their body language or watching their particularly habbits. Analysing every word.

Do your thoughts reflect the others? How well do you know the other person. Or how well do others know you? Who knows you the best?

Wouldn't it be great to go to a place where nobody knows you sometimes? Where you can do whatever you want, just how you want it? No one who annoys you.

Even if it's only for one week...


Good song


Tomorrow I'll be there again my friend
I'll wake up and start all over again
When everybody else is gone

Nobody knows...
Nobody knows the rhythm of my heart.
I think nobody knows, nobody knows but me

Foggy Walls

Riding through the foggy streets tonight. It makes me feel invisable in a weird kind of way. On the last moment you see things doom up around you.

The heavier the fog the more invisible I feel. Like the fog wants me to be alone for a while. But what if I really wanna dissapear? On a foggy night...

You remember High School? When you're sick at home and you get a text "where are you?!". That makes you feel visable. Even when you're not there they see you.

I sometimes wonder what happens when I would be gone. Somewhere nobody knows. What would happen? Will people miss me? Or gonna try finding me?

What if I don't wanna be found? I want to dissapear. Ok, the police can track me down but will somebody go to the police? Will I be missed? Will I be found?

Who will be the first one to notice that I'm gone? If you're not there one time, without notification, it won't be noticed. Only after a couple times they will start to wonder.

The fog has something magic. A way of telling you something. But what is its message? It brings me back to myself. Like thick walls around you.

Yeah, that's it! It makes me feel locked up. Makes me think of breaking loose but that also scares me 'cause I can't leave behind what I have.

Because I love the people and things I have in my life so much...

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Chistmas2012

Last year I made a big project of my christmas cards... Well, every year I enjoy making a design for my own christmas cards but last year I gave it an extra touch. I gave you my friends a card with honesty!

Read the blog from last year again!
I told you how much I appreciated you. What I liked about you. Remember? Do you still have that card?

Well this year I want to look back... Instead of looking forwards.

I'll call this project: Do you remember?! Just Like Old Times!
A card full of appreciation and memories.

So I'll come back on an adventure, day, trip, holiday, happening or stupidcrazylovelyawesomely something we did/saw/had/been to or discovered together.

I wanna look back on all the good times WE had! And ofcourse hoping for more than a thousand others yet to come.

So when you open your card and read it. I hope you will enjoy it... Maybe you should've picked another happening but this one comes to my mind when I think of you. Please feel free to share another happening as return.

All love to all my friends and friends I haven't met yet!

I also wanna wish EVERYBODY a very delightfull and lovely christmas and sparkly new year!!!

Loveeee <3
Fox.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

From 24 hours to one year!!

My last blog was about 24 hours (34)...

Today it's november 3th. Exactly one year ago I started this blog! Time to evaluate...

1. Let's get it started in here!

2. My "First" blog was the announcement of me putting my bullshit on the web ;]

5. Stick to your deal. I still listen to her music and hope to see a show again soon.

10. Wereldband! Best band everrr. You'll never believe it but after I finish this blog I'm going to their new show!

11. Santa Claus & Sinterklaas, It's all coming again!

13. My Christmas, reminds me that I have to get started with my new Christmas Card project! I ordered them last week :]

15. Best Roomie, sadly I'm gonna leave you in two weeks. We had the best of times but due to finance I have to move. Will never forget you and we'll keep having our "roomie" nights! <3

20. Wish I knew that, every day is a special day and every time I find out about it afterwards... What's your favourite weird day? Mine is Kiss a Ginger Day!

22. Roller Derby! Hell yeah. Physious Fox, that would be me. I played my first bouts, won the MVP (Most Valuable Player) award once and still going! Gonna celebrate my one year Derby on February first. (25)

26. My best pie! I'm gonna have a guest pie'er on soon! More delicious baking just like the Appel Bomb (29)

27. Words on my paper. I'm really proud of this blog. It's why I write... Maybe my best blog everrrr.

30. The only contance thing in life is change!

32. Leave me alone. All my plans to escape came together. Not quite as expected but still I had a week alone!

33. I'm just gonna do what I want!

These are my favourite blogs form last year! I had 1.462 views, 1000 from The Netherlands and the rest coming from 10 other countries all over the world. Awesome!

So here we are, blog nummero 35 in one year time... Damn.

I like to keep writing my blogs! If you have a subject you want me to write about, tell me!!! I like a challenge ;]

It has been a great year. I learnt a lot and wrote a lot. I hope people liked my blog last year and gonna keep following me the coming years!

Byebyee!
Fox.